Despite being apart of one of the most successful girl groups ever, Michelle Williams admits she was severely depressed during her days in Destiny’s Child. She says even though she was grateful she was still sad.

“It got really really bad … to the point of I was suicidal,” Williams said. “I was to that place where it got so dark and heavy because sometimes you feel like, ‘I’m the provider, I take care of people, I’m not supposed to be feeling this way — what do I do?’ I wanted out.” 

Check out more about Williams’s discussion on mental health below.